4.53 AM - Awake and Confuse

Last evening, I talked to one of my friend. I used to call her weird but at the end of the day, she was the one who I can talk with. We talked about several things and the conversation continued until there was something flowing from my eyes. And yes! I was crying while talking to her. That moment was so unexpected. I didn't know why I choose her to share with things that was spinning inside my head instead of my other best friends. This thing make me realized that I don't need any specific best friend because each one of my friends is special. Each one of them has a unique criteria that represent them as my best friend which includes her, my weirdo friend. Some of them bring tears to my eyes, some of them bring joys to my life. They are just unique, unpredictable, lovely, and cruel creatures that occupy my life. And to my weirdo friend, I am really sorry to call you weird. I should not judge you at the first place.

Malu nye!

I wish I had a mega superpower which allows me to read people's mind.

Bullshit!
Why should I did all the stupid things.
Why? Why? n Why?
I don't know what I was thinking during that time.
Mengapa perlu dia?
Dah x suka but still longing for him.
Ohh tidak perlu begitu rite?
I think I should fly a kite.
Enough said,
I should start THINK FOR MYSELF!!

Lost!

4:25 am in the morning.
I'm lost in what i'm doing rite now.
should i cross the line or should i stay on the line.
But the truth is, i know where is the line.
Sometimes, you lost as if you wanna die

Today, it is all about lost.
physically lost
mentally lost
emotionally lost

and lastly Lost! by coldplay
Just because I'm losing
Doesn't mean I'm lost
Doesn't mean I'll stop
Doesn't mean I would cross

Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get
What I deserved
No better and no worse

I just got lost
Every river that I tried to cross
Every door I ever tried was locked
Ohhh and I'm...
Just waiting 'til the shine wears off

You might be a big fish
In a little pond
Doesn't mean you've won
Cause along may come
A bigger one

And you'll be lost
Every river that you tried to cross
Every gun you ever held went off
Ohhh and I'm...
Just waiting until the firing stopped
Ohhh and I'm...
Just waiting 'til the shine wears off

Ohhh and I...
Just waiting 'til the shine wears off
Ohhh and I..
Just waiting 'til the shine wears off

ohh en.man, i just waiting till the shine wears off..

ini dunia yang nyata
mari bertemu si tua
yang belum tentu disuka...